This morning (5am) we went to prayer as a family again. This is becoming one of my favorite events of the week, and the thought of it always makes me smile. Intercession for he church in Israel was beautiful and we contended for the salvation of lost Jews. My little baby girl slept most of the time which gave my wife, Vina, an opportunity to participate in the prayer meeting.
When we came home a little after seven Ava was fussy and wanted to go back to the sleep we just messed up for her by putting her in a car seat. We changed her and presented her with a breakfast snack and she settled. Then unsettled. I picked her up,laid her on my chest, and began patting her freshly diapered bottom. She quickly fell asleep and stole my heart in the process.
I fell in love with her little breathes, squirmy twitches, and warm little body heat (yes, body heat can be little). I know she won’t always fit on my chest like this, and there will come a point when she thinks being this close to me is totally embarrassing. There were several things I didn’t know fatherhood would bring me, this is one of the best ones.
Oh today. How I have longed for a day like today! I have been up for over 17 hours. I have not eaten much. I have only spent 20 or so minutes in the Word. My little girl has cried and cried to the point where she is doing that type of breathing that’s more like sniffling. My wife is still adjusting to being a mommy and I am still getting used to being a daddy.
Today I am weak. And today I sat in a devotional prayer meeting that ministered to my soul. The worship leader was prophesying directly to my heart. Break through! I was so connected.
For some time now I have felt barren and disconnected with God. I heard the Lord speak to me a simple sentence that changed my grid for life. He said, “your strength is your greatest weakness”. In a sense, it was what has been keeping me from communion with Jesus. I began to look back over the past few weeks; how I have relied on my own strength and how independent I have been.
My strength is sufficient for you. For in your weakness then I am strong.
Tonight, I am strangely looking forward to my 1 am wake up call when my little girl needs to be burped.
This morning it was like my friend was in another world. He was staggering as he walked all while laughing until he semi gracefully made his way to the ground. Laying on his back he spouted out in some foreign language no one in the room understood. Feeling uncomfortable and awkward I could only respond with “give him more Lord”. I didn’t mean it. That’s just what I’ve said the hundred or so times I had encountered a similarly uncomfortable Holy Spirit moment. I looked to the others in the other room, and shrugged as if a small child had just made some type of immature whoopsey, and everyone thought it was cute.
I felt the Lord with defense and sobriety in His tone say to me, “it isn’t cute. it’s to be envied. It’s called love. One of My love languages happens to be [a literal language] others can’t understand.”
I wonder if Paul made the statement in 1 Corinthians 14:18 in response to those around him who were embarrassed with his spiritual language? “I thank my God I speak with tongues more than you all…”
What are my feelings on the topic as I journal this morning? In the words of Paul in 1 Corinthians 14:15
“What is the conclusion then? I will pray with the spirit, and I will also pray with the understanding. I will sing with the spirit, and I will also sing with the understanding.”
Amen! Glory to God
My last few days have been exciting. I am hopeful but at the same time rooted in the fact that all of my current desired outcomes will not last into eternity. I have the opportunity to better provide for my new family, have a better schedule, and to be doing what I have dreamed about doing for years. Still there is coming a time when this industry will likely not exist due to corruption and the increase of wickedness. So while I am excited for the new potential role I keep my hope in the only sure Thing. Jesus is coming for me and I will be with Him billions times trillions of years.
I hope in the day of His coming more than I hope in new prospects. I hope in the promise of His mouth more than a everything the world calls stable.
Come lord Jesus, come.
Tonight we took our first trip as a family to The Prayer Room’s Saturday encounter service. Ava did really well. Starting with the car ride…
Jeremy was filling in for brad because he is recovering from a ruptured and removed appendix. He brought a timely word on spiritual warfare and the authority of the individual believer through Christ Jesus. He brought biblical precedence, practical examples, and easy to follow application.
This can be such a powerful revelation to believers when they get a hold of the fact that they don’t have to put up with the schemes of the devil. Christ has dominion over all spiritual powers (Ephesians 1:20) and we have been seated with Him in power (Ephesians 2:6) so that at the name of Jesus spiritual oppression from demons would be forced to leave. Amen! Let us walk in freedom!
Today we took Ava to the prayer room for the first time. I pray that it will be the first of thousands upon thousands of
hours she spends in that room. I want to grow old in that room. I want my children to grow up in that room. I want our family to unfold the depth of the wisdom and mysteries of who Christ is in that room.
Today was a first for our little family, and the fruit of our lifestyle will only truly be revealed in the age to come….
For now I just need to find some ear plugs for her size!
Thankful for good friends who love Jesus… And know how to cook homemade yummy soups! Chad, Amanda, and young Scarlett came for a visit this evening and totally blessed us with a good ol’ home cooked spread (tomato basil soup, salad, garlic bread, and yummy choco-doodle cookies). We prayed, laughed, and enjoyed each other.
I bathed and rocked Ava ready for bed. Vina is giving her a little midnight snack to help seal the deal on a good nights sleep.
Going Back to work today. It’s been a full 2 weeks since I have worked, and I am so ready to find a way to spend more time with my girls.
Thankful for the time I was able to spend helping to jump start our little familia. Back to the cubicle for me.
Our friend Caslin pointed out on Monday night that there were “ants in the bathroom, like lots of them”! I laid some pesticide and closed the door on the problem for the night. Yesterday (Tuesday) I cleaned up the handful of curled up ants and sealed the hole in the wall they snuck in. Later when Vina was getting a onesie for Ava from the nursery closet she informed me that there were “ants all over Ava’s clothes”! Today, after spending hours hand-plucking ants from baby clothes, pulling up carpet, exterminating, cleaning a bathroom, vacuuming, and laundering the ants are gone. The ants had come from a mound in the front yard, snuck in a tiny hole in the shifting foundation, and made their way under the carpet to the bathroom/ Ava’s closet.
I gave Ava a bath today, and it was just what we all needed for a peaceful rest of the night. She is now sleeping and oh so cute! I get startled when she gasps for air in the middle of the night after spitting up milk. I can be fast asleep and awakened to action in a split second.
The Lord revealed to me that I get that desire/ ability from Him. He is the same way with me when I am in trouble. He loves to be “our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalms 46:1
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: deception will sweep the earth resulting in former christians worshiping demons.
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: Jesus will have a bride that is victorious in love, and it will be really sweet.
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: if you think it’s getting bad now…. Put ur seatbelt on. It’s going to get worse
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: if ur tired of not moving in power now… Put ur seatbelt on! You will be soon
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: it’s a good idea to start preparing yesterday. So get started and redeem the time
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: it’s really not that hard to interpret. It just takes consistency.
Conclusions from reading the book of revelation regularly: I love Jesus more